2002-01-15 @ 12:48 a.m.

id like to thank. you know. whoever is in charge. up there. for these days.

days when i go into work and everyone greets me with a good morning followed by pure smiles. because its a welcome suprise. and a change of pace. to see me there on a monday. and bumping into an old friend in the parking lot as i get out of my car and head into work. who is there with the contracting company. fixing the heat. and when my boss calls me at home. at ten pm. to tell me that the photo i took of the hockey game over the weekend. that she just saw. was amazing. and K, the sports editor, said it was 'the best hockey photo we've ever had in the newspaper'. which just. feels good. and talking with my editor today. feeling confident enough to say what needed to be said. and having that be well received. and the queue is full of photos by me. and tomorrows paper will be full. and days. like today. when the next day i leave for two days in boston. to visit. and see old friends. which just thrills me. and when we went out to dinner tonight the waitress was sweet and attentive. and being whispered to. over sundaes. 'i love you'. over hot fudge and jimmies.

and we. D and i and even hazy the cat, spent most of tonight being mellow and lingering around the house drinking tea and writing thoughts down through pens and keyboards. and now. its late and the ground is covered in snow again. and you can see it coming down in the streetlight. and the street is dead quiet. and its a sort of dark winter wonderland. and the house is silent except for the sounds of the heat spitting out and D in the bedroom quietly playing his guitar. and its a night of brightness and good things. although when i look out this window in front of me. its just black skies and black trees. and white snow. i can see all the colors. in my mind. not the shades of grey. like too many days have been.

and im thinking. and its one of those days. when things are inspiring. and the good. is just. overwhelming. and im feeling things i havent felt in too long.

good. confident. strong. beautiful.