2002-10-28 @ 11:07 p.m.

today i made a decision. after a long time of thinking about whether or not i really should make the switch from canon to nikon. ive decided im going to buy a nikon f100. which looks fabulous. and ive heard so much praise about it. and i cant afford, nor do i need i guess, the f5 right now.

so im going to sell my canon. and my canon lenses. a gift from D so many christmases ago now. a camera thats been good to me. for the most part.

but truth be told. i never really warmed up to it. it never really felt right with me. never really sat right in my hands. up against my eye.

so. even though i dont have any nikon lenses as of yet. and that can be more of an investment than the camera body itself. im going to do it. so ill have to start with sigma lenses for a time. ill survive.

see. ive been wanting this for so long. a different camera. a new camera. one that felt right. and ive been using a nikon at work for over a year now and enjoy all of those things about it. the one i use at work. its clumsy and too big for my small hands. and i joke sometimes that the equipment weighs as much as i do. and at the end of the day, i almost always have a sore back or right shoulder. but when im shooting. it feels like the right camera. in my hands. up against my eye.

ive been letting this camera issue hold me back for a while. it sounds like an excuse, and it has been for me. i dont want to take that class until i have a better camera. i dont want to do self-assignments until i have a better camera. its all excuses.

so i have the money. the money in my savings that ive been too afraid to spend. but im going to do it. im going to break down and spend a portion of it. this is big for me.

yep.